I know, it's just that it was at this part in the constant racing of my mind, and all the millions of scenarios that kept flashing by, that I finally started to feel a little better. Even now, I can look at Celeste and it helps me keep my fingers on the ledge of a decent feeling. I don't fully understand any of this, I just hope it helps people to read it. There's heartbreaking beauty out there and we need to be reminded of that often. Again, thanks for the comment, you're reading all my heavy hitters in a row.