Losing yourself in books is one of the great joys of the world. I go on long walks and listen to audio books. One of the things that has helped me lately is that I've started expelling my frustrations with modern society by writing an absurd fantasy story that I read to my kids. Putting all the awful in our world in a form of ridicule and absurdity seems to help enormously. You might get a kick out of it: https://walterrhein.substack.com/p/an-example-of-the-anti-patriarchal